Excuse the mess, I stopped giving a fuck
I've felt this way for years, but especially lately, I've been really apathetic...I considered calling this blog "adventures in apathy" but really, now...
Apathy might not be the best word, but the next best thing would be angry...really angry. Like my friend Dulce says, nothing is good enough for me, and I'm a total bitch. I want my God-damn razors. Where the hell did I put those damn things? If my mom finds em, I'm screwed. Those things could kill :-O
Yeah. In case you didn't know, or even more unlikely, you cared, I cut myself. Not all braggy, I hate it. But I hate how people brag about it even more. It's just as bad as annorexia, or a crack-addiction, because it drags you in, and you can't cope with shit in a healthy way. But it's becoming a fad, and that pisses me off. If you're gonna fuck up your life and your body, do it because you're cornered and desperate, not because it's "cool."
Back on business, it's strange how filthy my mouth is. A normal person would be APALLED by the things I say...Nothing is exempt, I indiscriminately curse. Not entirely true, I avoid racial slurs partly because I don't know many, and because I think that racial slurs are idiotic...Like it's an insult to be ___...(except I don't like snobby rich people, and white people are really strange. I like very few of the white kids i've met)...Unfortunately, I have been known to FREQUENTLY insult sexual orientation, which doesn't make sense, because frankly, I don't give a crap who you love, as long as you are lucky enough to love SOMEONE. And I would hate for a girl to hit on me just as much as guy, partly because I don't appreciate any kind of that attention, and also because I have a boyfriend who molests me enough.
Yesterday, my mom was being a jerk about curfews and stuff. I understand her POV, but it was NOT fair that A.) I completed all my chores before I left, B.) I never get the chance to go out with my friends/Antonio for extended periods because I have a place to go to, which brings me to C.) I have to go to my dad's house, which I have no choice in the matter. It's not that I entirely hate it, I just like having some downtime to wander off and fuck around and do whatever I please without worrying about school, or being home in time to go to his house.
So she pissed me off. And then today, in school, this one whore named "Slotta" (teacher) was bitching about our Newspaper fundraiser...Yeah, if she doesn't like us selling chips and soda in the hall, which is debatable about its legality, she can fucking donate the last $500 so we can quit. Instead of questioning our methods, critisizing, and talking badly about us-kids she doesn't even know or understand- she should fucking learn to keep her ugly yap SHUT and be supportive, like the school SUGGESTS. I hate these hypocritical cunts who don't know what the fuck is what. I have more FUCKING denver CIS experience than that bitch, so she shouldn't fucking judge what I do.
As if I WANTED to move schools in my senior year.
Another teacher on my angry list is the teacher I have every day...OK, at lunch, I was busy putting the soda and chips away in the Newspaper lockers, took me a damn HOUR, and I didn't get to eat lunch, which was fine at the time because I ate breakfast like an hour and a half before, but I digress, if my fat-ass doesn't have time to eat, what the hell makes that whore think i have time for anything else? I was late to class -but excused by the school principal, thank you- due to my habit of wanting newspaper stuff to NOT be stolen...I couldn't find a paper and she was bitching at me about all the time i had...yeah, fucking, right. Go suck a big rooster, you cock-whore
PHEW a lot of bitchy old women today...Maybe it is my Destiny? Well, last was the substititute in Japanese...She just wanted to yell and bitch at everybody...6th graders can simply NOT settle down and concentrate on Cue...it's just not in their nature/agenda/blood/whatever. Not that that bitch could listen. And one of the kids is slightly special-ed, ADHD or something, so he has a hard enough time paying attention and understanding, and she wouldn't shut the hell up at him.
I feel like such a coward. I should have stood up to her and told her to back the fuck off, that we'd get stuff done. I wish I had, but if wishes and buts were candy and nuts, then Nechama would have a happy Christmas. It's unfortunate that my favorite teacher of all time was the one whose classroom this unfortunate incident occurred...otherwise, i probably WOULD have started shit...but Masha and I had a great time trashing that filthy pussy....**cough** anyway, she didn't know what the hell she was talking about. I out-Japanesed that old bitch.
WELL, folks, sorry to constantly bitch at the...well, no one...readers of this whiny thing...such is the life of an appropriately angry teenage girl, and **points to blog title** i really should just STFU, but it ain't happenin
Apathy might not be the best word, but the next best thing would be angry...really angry. Like my friend Dulce says, nothing is good enough for me, and I'm a total bitch. I want my God-damn razors. Where the hell did I put those damn things? If my mom finds em, I'm screwed. Those things could kill :-O
Yeah. In case you didn't know, or even more unlikely, you cared, I cut myself. Not all braggy, I hate it. But I hate how people brag about it even more. It's just as bad as annorexia, or a crack-addiction, because it drags you in, and you can't cope with shit in a healthy way. But it's becoming a fad, and that pisses me off. If you're gonna fuck up your life and your body, do it because you're cornered and desperate, not because it's "cool."
Back on business, it's strange how filthy my mouth is. A normal person would be APALLED by the things I say...Nothing is exempt, I indiscriminately curse. Not entirely true, I avoid racial slurs partly because I don't know many, and because I think that racial slurs are idiotic...Like it's an insult to be ___...(except I don't like snobby rich people, and white people are really strange. I like very few of the white kids i've met)...Unfortunately, I have been known to FREQUENTLY insult sexual orientation, which doesn't make sense, because frankly, I don't give a crap who you love, as long as you are lucky enough to love SOMEONE. And I would hate for a girl to hit on me just as much as guy, partly because I don't appreciate any kind of that attention, and also because I have a boyfriend who molests me enough.
Yesterday, my mom was being a jerk about curfews and stuff. I understand her POV, but it was NOT fair that A.) I completed all my chores before I left, B.) I never get the chance to go out with my friends/Antonio for extended periods because I have a place to go to, which brings me to C.) I have to go to my dad's house, which I have no choice in the matter. It's not that I entirely hate it, I just like having some downtime to wander off and fuck around and do whatever I please without worrying about school, or being home in time to go to his house.
So she pissed me off. And then today, in school, this one whore named "Slotta" (teacher) was bitching about our Newspaper fundraiser...Yeah, if she doesn't like us selling chips and soda in the hall, which is debatable about its legality, she can fucking donate the last $500 so we can quit. Instead of questioning our methods, critisizing, and talking badly about us-kids she doesn't even know or understand- she should fucking learn to keep her ugly yap SHUT and be supportive, like the school SUGGESTS. I hate these hypocritical cunts who don't know what the fuck is what. I have more FUCKING denver CIS experience than that bitch, so she shouldn't fucking judge what I do.
As if I WANTED to move schools in my senior year.
Another teacher on my angry list is the teacher I have every day...OK, at lunch, I was busy putting the soda and chips away in the Newspaper lockers, took me a damn HOUR, and I didn't get to eat lunch, which was fine at the time because I ate breakfast like an hour and a half before, but I digress, if my fat-ass doesn't have time to eat, what the hell makes that whore think i have time for anything else? I was late to class -but excused by the school principal, thank you- due to my habit of wanting newspaper stuff to NOT be stolen...I couldn't find a paper and she was bitching at me about all the time i had...yeah, fucking, right. Go suck a big rooster, you cock-whore
PHEW a lot of bitchy old women today...Maybe it is my Destiny? Well, last was the substititute in Japanese...She just wanted to yell and bitch at everybody...6th graders can simply NOT settle down and concentrate on Cue...it's just not in their nature/agenda/blood/whatever. Not that that bitch could listen. And one of the kids is slightly special-ed, ADHD or something, so he has a hard enough time paying attention and understanding, and she wouldn't shut the hell up at him.
I feel like such a coward. I should have stood up to her and told her to back the fuck off, that we'd get stuff done. I wish I had, but if wishes and buts were candy and nuts, then Nechama would have a happy Christmas. It's unfortunate that my favorite teacher of all time was the one whose classroom this unfortunate incident occurred...otherwise, i probably WOULD have started shit...but Masha and I had a great time trashing that filthy pussy....**cough** anyway, she didn't know what the hell she was talking about. I out-Japanesed that old bitch.
WELL, folks, sorry to constantly bitch at the...well, no one...readers of this whiny thing...such is the life of an appropriately angry teenage girl, and **points to blog title** i really should just STFU, but it ain't happenin
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